I Lost My Steak of Attendance for Beef Udon
?
Narrative Free-Verse by Cen Xinyan (Crystal)
Illustration by
Appetizer:
I: Just a few minutes from the train station,
drive, left turn
through a yellow gate–Japanese Restaurant.
Look, Grandpa with his portable white camera–I almost
thought he only had one eye,
fascinating–paparazzi of our own.
Assembling a V-form with my right-hand finger,
a routine after years–I stretched hard
(not to disappoint my one-eyed Grandpa),
the nerves in my palm are inelastic, I assure you.
Sweet grin
turned sour–
upholding the best smile.
II: Cushion seat, He drove–
how long, how long, how long!!
Grandpa never needed a radio
network to keep our ears company–
how convenient!
Our staple remark in Canton,
wild smirk to excite Jie Jie–
beamed in a pod.
Yellow gate: I spied,
left-turn: that’s checked–
big wooden door: the familiar
irasshaimase came crescendoing in unison.
Oh-yes, a V-finger-pose by the door; expected request.
Main Course:
III: Never I asked to pass the menu, please–
I would be cheating
if I dared to consider otherwise;
always loyal to Beef Udon.
Dad went for steak,
JieJie and Mom went for salmon,
and Grandpa went for
standing-up-and-asking-a-nearby-individual-for-a-picture;
I was too young
ever to consider other poses,
V-fingers it was–
I was always loyal.
IIII: One chance per trip,
for the yellow gate-left turn’s Beef Udon
I recollected to myself.
Beef Udon is a privilege–eat slow.
Dessert:
IIIII: Having options is one thing;
deciding between two choices
of ice cream flavor–deadly serious.
I swear I prayed,
for sesame to be there that day–it did / God listened.
IIIII I: Another year until I return to Canton,
until my following slurp–
the best Beef Udon.
Post-Meal:
/ : the next time I went to Canton
was four years after–
Grandpa's abrupt passing.
At the end, this time, of the trip,
I begged to hear irasshaimase again.
One-eyed did not come;
no need to stress about-stretching
my inelastic fingers to a V.
Ordered salmon this time–
can’t seem to persuade myself why;
sesame ice cream was gone a year ago,
Grandpa a week.
//: Perhaps we shall try other Japanese Restaurants next time;
this place really changed ah Mui, Dad told me that night;
I nodded. The idea of
Beef Udon
was never the remark in Canton;
I lied about loyalty.